I keep thinking what would have happened if I never gave him another chance when he cheated, if I left him how I’d feel and what would be different. I’ve been really angry with myself because he broke my heart twice and I let it happen. Sometimes I think that if he never did that we’d probably still be together right now and it’s make me depressed. Fuck him he ruined everything for us and for myself. All I’ve ever wanted is someone who won’t fucking cheat on me why is that so fucking much to ask for? As soon as I trust someone this happens. How am I ever supposed to be able to be with someone and trust them? I don’t know anymore.

I miss having someone to talk to and tell everything to. Someone that texts me every morning and night and wants to be around me. I just miss having someone who cares about me and that I care about as well.